Originally post on Reclaiming Trans

I’ve been feeling a lot of regret about my past actions. I feel as though I lost about six years of my life. I think back over that time and think about all that I wish hadn’t happened, how I wish I hadn’t done this or that, or that I’d gone about things differently. There’s quite a few people I wish I’d never met.

I wish I’d never participated in the radical feminist detrans women’s community. I wish I never got involved, that I’d worked things out on my own and turned to my friends…

Originally published on Reclaiming Trans

Several months ago, I decided to write out the negative effects of my detransition and came up with the following list. I divided the list up between what I experienced while detransitioning and when I came out as trans again, after deciding that detransition hadn’t worked for me.

During Detransion:

– Depression

– Shame

– Self-hatred

– Suicidal thoughts, impulses, feelings

– Increase in dysphoria

– Internalizing toxic belief system

– Self-destructive coping mechanisms, addiction, impulses to self-harm, etc

– increased dissociation/fragmentation from rejecting trans parts

– gender dysphoria/gender identity manifesting as imagined characters, daydreams…

Originally published on Reclaiming Trans.

The following are notes from a meeting between four female detrans activists, Devorah Zahav, Carey Callahan, Cari Stella and myself (then working under the name Crash), that took place on October 3rd 2016. I found these notes while going through old emails looking for something else and decided that they were worth sharing to give an idea of what kind of organizing and projects transphobic detrans women have pursued.

Transphobic detrans women have collaborated with transphobic radical feminists, conversion therapists, anti-trans parent groups and others working to restrict or abolish medical transition but they also…

Originally published on Reclaiming Trans

On April 7, an anti-trans organization called Partners for Ethical Care released a book called Desist, Detrans, & Detox: Getting Your Child Out of the Gender Cult by Maria Keffler, one of the organization’s co-founders. This book is currently being sold by Amazon, among other online retailers. The book accuses the trans community of being a cult indoctrinating vulnerable young people and promotes conspiracy theories about a “billion-dollar gender industry” preying on children. It claims to “[provide] a roadmap to help families navigate the treacherous terrain of gender indoctrination, and bring their children back to…

Orginally posted on Health Liberation Now!

Many articles about detransitioning present an incomplete and misleading view of the detrans community by failing to address the beliefs and politics of its members. An example of this is Jesse Singal’s Atlantic article When Children Say They’re Transgender which features three detrans women, Max Robinson, Carey Callahan, and Cari Stella. Robinson’s and Callahan’s stories are told in much greater depth than Stella’s, who is briefly mentioned and quoted. In the article, they are presented as women who used to think they were trans, transitioned and later came to detransition and believe that they…

Originally published on Reclaiming Trans

Back when I was still a detrans woman, I was interviewed a few times by journalists for articles on detransitioning. The article that drew the most attention and the strongest reactions from people was a piece written by Katie Herzog that appeared in The Stranger. Many trans people and their allies found the article offensive and transphobic and reacted to it in outrage. Many wrote critical responses.

I want to talk about what was going on in my life when I was interviewed for The Stranger article, because the impression it gives is very incomplete…

Originally published on Reclaiming Trans.

I want to be upfront with how I view detransitioned people who believe in transphobic ideologies. When I was detrans, I hid my real views on trans people because I didn’t want to suffer the consequences of being openly transphobic. I rationalized what I was doing at the time but now I recognize that I was being dishonest and manipulative. So now I want to be honest, even though I know my views will offend many detrans people.

I believe that many, perhaps most detrans people who believe in transphobic views are self-hating trans people…

Below are the rules and guidelines for two support groups for detrans and re-identified women. Some of the same women were involved in starting and formulating the structure and guidelines of both groups. I played no role in creating either of these groups but I participated in both of them, more so in the second group than in the first.

Neither of the group’s guidelines were intended to be seen by outsiders and I’m breaking the rules by disclosing them and posting screenshots from the forum. Making them public will likely be seen by some detrans women as a breach…

Oringially posted at Health Liberation Now!

I am a genderqueer transmasculine butch who went through something akin to conversion therapy combined with ideological radicalization coming from a transphobic radical feminist perspective. According to that ideology, trans identities are false and the product of living in a patriarchal society, so I tried to “de-trans” myself in order to fit the radical feminist ideal of lesbian womanhood.

I lived as a detransitioned woman for about seven years. I was part of a detransitioned women’s subculture that is heavily invested in transphobic radical feminist ideology. Not everyone who participated in the subculture were…

[CW: mention of suicidal impulses, addiction, self-destructiveness, transphobia]

I keep thinking back on what my life was like when I was at my most fanatical. I was working on a farm in Oregon. I didn’t know anyone in the area. I was very depressed and hated myself. I felt like getting drunk all the time but I was trying not to drink and was mostly successful with that. I only had to do a few hours of work a day in exchange for room and board, so I had lots of free time. I ended up spending a lot of…

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